Top 10 Moments of 2008

10. As always, the river trip in July has to make the list...it's one of the highlights of my life and probably always will be!

9. Realizing that sometimes, the best thing you can do is let go. Way, way harder than it sounds, but totally worth it in the end.

8. Getting accepted in grad school, MBA here I come!!!

7. Passing my stupid certification exam for work! Stupid test could've been the death of me. Now, the application will probably kill me, but at least I survived the test!!!

6. FINALLY introducing my two best friends and watching them fall head over heels for each other.

5. Buying a new Jeep 4 door and then taking it from previously mentioned husband. Technically, the events leading up to the purchase totally sucked, but overall,it's way cooler than the jeep we had before!

4. Seeing baby Keegan in the first few hours after his birth.

3. Seeing baby Carson in hour one of his birth.

2. Buying a house!! While the painting and stuff is totally stupid, in theory, the house concept is greatness.

1. Marrying my best friend on April 5. Not sure if that will make the list every year, but at least for this year it does! ;)

Two of my FAVORITE things

Just when life is bringing you down, it gives you laughter!!! I love it!!

First, I love this little girl!!! She's too cute!!! THANK YOU YOUTUBE!!!



Second, Alligator thinks she's funny and decided to post my BEAUTIFUL pieces of art on the internet.....

So here they are, for your viewing pleasure....No comments from the peanut gallery please!

Maybe we need to rethink our positions?

http://nofo.blogspot.com/2008/11/proposition-hate.html

After you read this, if you can still tell me that gay partners don't deserve the same things that heterosexual partners deserve, don't talk to me anymore.

Feeling like I need a voice...

So I have this friend, and she is amazing! And what amazes me the most is her ability to speak her mind without worrying what anyone is going to say to her. I love it! I absolutely admire this quality in her, and I can't imagine her without this quality. So when I read a blog post of hers today, I started to wonder if I would be the same way, or if I tend to sit on my opinions rather than voice them.

I would like to think that the majority of the time, I have the courage to stand up for my beliefs and my opinions. I would like to think that when someone sends me an email discounting Barack Obama's abilities as the next President of the United States, that I would be able to respond and tell them exactly why he is qualified to lead this country for the next four years.

I would like to think that if someone challenged my religious beliefs I would be able to stand up to them and affirm what I believe in. I would like to think that their view of my beliefs wouldn't matter to me and that my life would continue whether or not they supported what I thought or not.

I would like to think all of these things about me, but often I think I fall short of "standing up for what I believe in." I think I take the silent approach more than I choose the vocal route that would lead me to doing what is right. I applaud my amazing friend for her bravery and ability to affirm what she believes on a daily basis. I think it is truly a cherished quality that she should hold near to her self.

So, on that note...I just want to say a few of the things that I believe in and am willing to defend!

1) Rainy days are always followed by sunny ones at some point..:) I know, classy!
2) President-elect Obama is going to do a magnificient job running this country. That is not to say that George W. Bush didn't do a good job, it's just to say that we are in need of change and he can deliver that to us.
3) I'm not 100% positive hell exists, but I do like to believe in a higher power that is going to save my soul.
4) No matter what they tell you, brussel sprouts are disgusting and should be banished from the earth.
5) It's not global warming, it's climate change, but I truly believe we are pushing the change faster than is natural.
6) Madonna is stupid.

that's about it for today, but I think I like this affirmation of beliefs thing and will try it again someday!

What? Are we 12?

Today is one of those days. One of those days where I feel like instead of being a working adult, I'm stuck in 8th grade all over again arguing about stupid stuff with stupid boys!!! My job is great. I love my job. I LOVE MY JOB. I do not love all of my coworkers all of the time.

We've made it through some serious crap that I would never wish on anyone. Mostly because we're all adults, and wishing for people to take a trip back to their 8th grade years, is just cruel! Anyway, we go through all this bull crap and I finally start to think "WOW! We're going to make it out of this alive!" and then BAM reality slaps you in the face and some of your coworkers are back to being 12 year olds. COME ON!!! I swear to god if I hear one more "I've always thought you were great for this company, you do an awesome job" brown nosing kind of bullshit response one more time, I just might spontaneously com bust into nothingness.

GOOD GRIEF!!!

Crank that CRABTREE

okay, so the biggest game ever for Texas Tech is coming up tomorrow. I'm enlisting the power of positive thinking for this game. I mean, the facts are Texas is ranked no.1 and undefeated, so I'm thinking we need a little positive thinking.

However, videos like this help to!!!




So, remember, tomorrow when you want to route for big, bad TU, change you're thinking, crank that crabtree and route for Texas TECH!!!!

Wreck 'Em!

My life as a jukebox

So, my life has a soundtrack and at any given time, there is a song that being made into a music video by what is going on in my life at the moment.

Lately...it's been In My Life by the Beatles. One of my all time favorite songs that seems to be stuck on repeat lately.

Saturday, one of the sweetest souls I've ever met passed away. We worked together, and basically, were co-workers, but she always went that extra mile in our conversations to make me feel like I was special and for that 20 minutes, I was the one she cared about most. She never failed to ask me about my family, or my now husband. She always asked about my wedding plans, what did my dress look like, how was I going to do my hair. She asked me about my honeymoon when I got back.

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more
In my life, I love you more

I will always remember our talks in the bathrooms, about life and love. About family and friends. One friend told me that when she called her to talk to her, she simply said "I've taken care of my family, I'm ready to go". Those words will stick with me, for an eternity I believe.

So take care of your family friends. Live your life with no regrets. When you get to the end of your journey, be able to say "I'm ready to go"

One soul is gone and our lives are changed. I hope my newborn nephew and cousin get a piece of the soul that has gone.

in my life, i love you more

VOTE OR SHUT YO MOUTH!!!

So, I'm a pretty political person, and I'm pretty true to my beliefs.

But this is not what my blog is for.

I don't care if you vote for McCain, or Obama.
I don't care if you write in Elmo or Big Bird.
I don't care if you have no idea what propositions are up for vote in your county.

But I do care whether or not you vote. So if you're reading this....get out and vote!!!

OMG!!!!

So, this is my new favorite song...enjoy!!!

Okay, sooooo after lots of listening to the Paper Trail and lots of talking to Alligator, it's official! I can totally be in love with T.I.! See, the thing is, he's not all about automatic weapons after all!!!

Apparently my boy was seriously feeling threatened and feeling like his family's lives were on the line when he went to purchase those AK47's. In fact, his life would probably still be in danger except the Feds are falling him so much now that someone would be an idiot to go after him!!!

So, all is right with the world and my love for TI can continue!!! Thank God becuase the boy is hot!!!!

So remember, you can have whatever you like!!!!

hotty mchot hot!!!

Sooo...I just want to take a second to recognize the greatness that is T.I. The dude is HOT first....Second, his new album is AMAZING! It's the best album I've purchased in a long time...and it makes me want to dance around in my chair!!!

I'm in love with him!!! Which is good....because I was needing a new crush in my life, so T.I. can nicely fit into that slot!!

Yikes stripes!!!

FRUIT STRIPES GUM!!! Anyone?! thought I'd try.

So I think I'm going to start doing a top of the weekend type listing so that maybe I'll get more written in here!!!

10. Sausage on a stick is so not close to a turkey leg. Stupid Oktoberfest....hook me up with a damn turkey leg!

9. Wings on the grill and then dipped in buffalo wing sauce taste a lot better than Wing Stop.

8. Beer pong is still fun, even if college was 2 years ago.

7. Walking does not equal running, but if you do it for long enough, your legs might hurt in the same way.

6. Being up before the ducks on the creek is not a good idea.

5. Apparently Branson isn't JUST for old folks. Although the flea markets do abound.

4. Hanging out with old friends is always better than hanging out alone...or with your husband! HA. Just kidding.

3. Having the fam over for dinner is always a good idea. Especially when they bring MORE food to make!

2. Lazy days are the best.

1. Watching your great uncle receive an award for 50 years of service with the Masons = PRICELESS.

So here's to another week of trying to diet and exercise. And not eat fatty fatty food.

Greatness.

Long time no post!

So I really thought I would be better about writing in my blog...but I think that I'm apprehensive now for some reason. Putting your words out there can come back to bite you in the ass!!

Anywho--last night, I went to a movie premiere and the author of the book on which the movie is based was there to do a Q&A after the film. Now, generally, I love this author. I think his/her books are easy reads and I usually enjoy reading the book. However, since meeting said author, I now have this distaste of him/her in my mouth. See the thing is, this author was kind of cocky, and gave off the impression that they really only write now a days to sell their work to be made into a movie. I think the PR person said that they are the wealthiest book/movie franchise in history. Whatever....I just...I'm so disappointed. I wanted him/her to be different! I wanted to know that they truly love writing, and that each story is a piece of them! If I were an author, I would write my books just for me. I wouldn't care whether or not it got made into a movie. I wouldn't even care if anyone read it. If someone did, that would be amazing, and I would feel blessed. But I wouldn't write novel after novel just to get my work made into a major motion picture.

The biggest dilemma? This author happens to write novels that are easily translated into major motion pictures that are usually major motion pictures that I end up buying on DVD.......
So while a boycott would be best, I don't think I'll be able to oblige. Especially since I tend to watch one of the major motion pictures like....twice a month or something.

Dang. Cruel world isn't it?

So my friend Janet did this 100 things about me post, and I thought it was fun.
So here we go: 100 things you hopefully didn't know about me.
100. I took driver's school at home because my softball schedule didn't really work out with the classes
99. I ran my car into a pole when I was 17 (see above)
98. My first pet was a hamster - she always got lost.
97. My first memory is of having my adenoids removed when I was only 18 months old
96. I'm scared of spiders. To the extent that if there is one, Dustin has to go in a kill it before I'll go into the room
95. If I were a day of the week, I'd want to be Sunday. Preferably Sunday afternoon because those are the best
94. I like the smell of gasoline
93. I once thought my soul mate was someone different than Dustin. But now, I'm positive it IS Dustin.
92. I don't have a favorite color. I prefer black, but I think colors are magnificent
91. I have intense road rage. So much that I sometimes chase people down on the road
90. I'm part hispanic - but I'm not sure where that part is from
89. I'm a pretty picky eater
88. My grandma used to think I was going to die before puberty because I never ate
87. I'm closer to my dad. We're basically the same person in different bodies
86. I wouldn't trade my mom for anything in the world
85. I don't believe in having more kids than adults in a family (pre-divorce)
84. I don't believe in divorce. I think you fight for what you want, and you fight to keep it
83. I have the weirdest thumbs of anyone I know
82. I sometimes think I'm more Buddhist than Christian
81. I would move to Italy if I could
80. I want to look Audrey Hepburn in the eye and tell her that I think she's beautiful
79. I once knew a girl with webbed feet
78. I want to die quickly in a car accident or quietly in my sleep
77. I hate laundry
76. I hate cleaning
75. I love sleeping
74. I have chronic sinusitis
73. I also have pre-dawn insomnia
72. My mother in law tried to punch me in the face once
71. I once drove from Lubbock to Dallas and back to Lubbock in one day to go to a Creed concert
70. I forgot to throw Dustin a birthday party for his 25th birthday
69. I think 69 is gross
68. I spent my 21st birthday at a Def Leppard concert.
67. Brian Adams was there too
66. I had a Jordan barbie from new kids on the block
65. I love P.F. Chang's
64. I hate seafood
63. I'm not very adventurous, but I like to think I am
62. I'm afraid that my children will be born into an unstable world
61. I battle depression on a daily basis
60. I sleep when I'm stressed
59. I sometimes forget to pay attention to details
58. I'm not very good at sending bills in the mail-- or RSVPing to weddings!
57. I have a myspace account but I never check it
56. I cried when I left my dogs at the kennel
55. It breaks my heart when people I love are mistreated
54. Sometimes I'm a bitch
53. I have a hard time letting go of the past
52. I'm difficult 95% of the time
51. If Dustin didn't put up with my shit, I'm not sure someone else would
50. One of my best friends is a guy
49. I have a work crush named Steve
48. I love the Pogue Mahone's song "Love you till the end"
47. I think Bob Marley was a genius
46. I'm horrible at painting
45. And even worse at drawing
44. I love ice cream - I think God gave me a separate stomach for it
43. I have a friend that's an atheist - and I still think the world of her.
42. I try not to be judgmental (but sometimes it gets the best of me)
41. I didn't have curly hair until after puberty
40. I could never pull any of my baby teeth - I always had to go to the dentist
39. I hate working on Fridays
38. I hate Monday mornings
37. I have rubbed Juliet's breast from Romeo and Juliet while in Verona
36. I detest the smell of cucumber melon lotion from Bath and Body Works because someone I know wears it too much
35. I once told my mom I was driving to New Mexico and instead flew to New York....to meet a boy
34. I used to skip class to sing songs in my dorm room with my roommate
33. I have a small obsession with purses
32. My Bailey is way too OCD with tennis balls
31. My dad once told me that having a dog was like taking care of a mentally retarded child
30. When I was younger, a black widow crawled out of my pool
29. I've made out with a girl
28. I want to go sky diving for my 25th birthday
27. I've always had an impending sense of doom about my life
26. I've floated the river in New Braunfels since I was 4
25. I'm excited about having kids
24. I don't know what I'll do when my grandmother meets her maker
23. I broke my arm when I was 6 months old
22. I was once asked if my parents beat me
21. My dimple in my cheek is actually a scar
20. I have migraines
19. My back hurts 95% of the time (probably from my chest!)
18. I used to be a lifeguard
17. Dustin was once my boss
16. One of my friends thinks my boss is hot
15. I think my company is pretty great
14. I like living in a city close to my heart
13. I'll probably never get rich with my degree
12. I'd live in a box if it meant that Dustin would still be by my side
11. I had an amazing honeymoon
10. I want to go to Alaska in the next year
9. I want to get pregnant in the next 2
8. I want to lose weight and be hot again!
7. I want to get a king size bed, but Dustin doesn't.
6. I want a Doberman for my next dog
5. I have 13 fish that I hardly ever see
4. I have a sprinkler system that costs me way too much money
3. I'd take a bullet for my best friend
2. I want to meet 50 cent
1. I married my best friend

I hate women who can't let go of the fairytale...I'm just saying

Normally, I'm not this vocal about women and why I hate the majority of them, but today, I feel compelled to put my thoughts in this blog.

I CAN'T STAND WOMEN WHO THINK THAT LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A FAIRYTALE AND THEN GET PISSED OFF WHEN THEY DON'T GET THAT FAIRYTALE.

First, I realize that I've only been married for well, almost four months, but here's the thing that I already know about marriage and life in general. IT'S HARD! You don't wake up every morning to breakfast in bed and you don't get massages every night before you fall asleep. Unless you're supremely lucky, your husband probably doesn't even think about doing those things for you on a regular basis. That's not what gets me. What gets me is the women who think they are entitled to things like that on a regular basis and think that life is supposed to be modeled after some princess they read about in some book when they were 4. The truth of the matter is, that just doesn't happen. People who live their lives without problems have problems, their problem is, they're bottling everything up so that on the surface, to you and me, they look AMAZING. But deep down, it's those kind of people that you have to worry about. They're the ones who are hurting inside but instead of maybe starting a fight with their husband, they just pretend like nothing is wrong.

Again, that's not what pisses me off. What pisses me off is the women who think this fairy tale still exists. The ones who think that marriage isn't hard and that a man should fulfill their every need. The bottom line is, marriage is hard and a man can't possibly fulfill your every need. Further more, you shouldn't NEED a man to fulfill you. You should have enough substance in your self to sustain you and the man should be a compliment to your life. What pisses me off most about these kinds of women is that often times, a good man is hurt by their actions. A good man is hurt by the fact that because their marriage is hard, and their life isn't a fairy tale, she's going to leave. She's going to leave under the assumption that she's going to find that fairy tale somewhere else.

Wheeew. I just needed to get that off my chest. I hate the fact that women like that scar men for life and make them shy of getting into another relationship down the road. Women like that ruin the dating life for men and ruin other women's chances of having what they so willingly gave up.

Why Alligators make the best friends

this is more than likely long over due, but after a slight mishap today, it made me realize that it needs to be said.

I credit my best friend for being my rock, my saving grace...but in reality, it's not always her that saves me or lets me bump up against her. In reality, it's my alligator friend. We'll call her Mrs. St. Pierre. See the thing is, we work together so 99% of the time, she gets the brunt of my venting. She gets the "I hate my job today" the "I can't fucking stand this person" and so much more. If I weren't able to vent I'd probably end up in the insane asylum but because she lets me do this, I make it through each and every day unharmed and uncommitted.

The thing is, the thing that makes me want to kick myself in the rear is that I sometimes take advantage of our relationship without knowing that I'm taking advantage. She happens to be the Manager of the Help Desk where I work and I sometimes use our relationship and my relationship with her employees to get things done a little faster, or to get things that not everyone else has. I wouldn't say that I'm trying to be sneaky and take things because I feel like I'm entitled to them because of our friendship, I just don't always follow the proper procedures that I could that everyone else is asked to follow.

My point in this blog is to tell my friend, Mrs. St.Pierre that she means more to me than the job she has and the goodies that she sometimes passes my way. It's not often that you find someone who will let you vent about everything you're holding inside without calling you out on how judgmental you're being....and then laugh at you because she remembers that one of your New Year's Resolutions was to be less judgmental.

So Alligator St. Pierre if you make it this far in my blog, know that you're more than my co-worker, you're one of my best friends and if I didn't have you to lean out, bitch to, and laugh with, my life would be much darker and sadder.

Have you talked to your cat about catnip?

Good grief. Sometimes you just want to take a deep breath and follow it up with a shot of whiskey or tequila. That is my day today. When I'm tired, or super busy really, I just want people to disappear. There is no need to be loud and bubbly and annoying, just disappear. I don't get it....

Anywho.....went to San Francisco over the 4th it was....well it was. It was fun and exciting, but it made me realize that there are things in my life that I think will never change no matter what I do. There are things that need to change but that are out of my control to change. And yet, I carry this burden that those things are things I'm supposed to be changing and am failing my self for not changing them. I am only one person, and I can only do so much, but at what point do others realize that they too need to step up and do something and that it's not only my responsibility to change. The worst part is, somewhere along the road, a request for help from all corners was made and 3 of the 4 corners have failed to do anything. Quite disturbing when you think about it because you would hope that at least one of them would find it respectful to at least attempt to be a little bit better.

Ugh..another story for another time perhaps.

Exhaustion = Pregnancy?!?!

So, as always, my life is crazy and work is busy. Which equals exhaustion for tiffytrox who needs like 500 hours of sleep a week. So, at work, when people ask me how I'm doing--I tell them the truth "I'm exhausted" I say, "I have so much on my plate right now, I'm exhausted." So what do they say?! ?! Oh, well you're not.....are you?! Do you think you might be?! You did just get married!

Are you freaking kidding me?! Am I pregnant? Let me just go back to the part where I told you I was exhausted. How many exhausted people really get down and start practicing the baby making skills let alone have the energy to MAKE A BABY? C'mon people! I just said EXHAUSTED! I'm not sure when one symptom of pregnancy started to mean that you were in fact pregnant, but geez.

Anywho---almost the big 3 month anniversary. Boy, time flies when you're having fun? Not sure what to say about that. It'll be here and it will go. And that is all. I will be in San Francisco, so I probably won't even remember to say happy anniversary to the tool so that's probably not a good sign of things to come eh?

Back to the whole pregnancy thing though----I don't think it's pregnancy as the culprit, but weird things are happening to me. I have the baby fever, and last night and this afternoon, smells are REALLY bothering me. Like I didn't really eat my lunch because the smells were soooo strong that it made me feel kind of sick...but hopefully it's the stomach flu and not a baby. Here's keeping our fingers crossed!

Maybe I put too much damnation into the universe

So Alligator says that you should put sunshine and daisies into the universe in order to get sunshine and daisies back. BUT I tend to be slightly judgmental, okay pretty darn judgmental. So judgmental in fact that I had to make a new year's resolution to not be so judgmental. BUT that aside, I think I'm putting too much negativity into the universe. Need more sunshine and daisies that's for sure.

I've got this bump on the back of my head that really hurts and is driving me nutso. Alligator says it's bad karma. So this morning I get up and I bend over, and then have a hard time getting back up, like my spine is snagging on something. Again, Alligator says bad karma. I get the whole karma's a bitch thing, but crap! When did karma start inflicting physical pain?! OUCH!

So husband is annoying 60% of the time. He doesn't seem to have the words thank you in his vocabulary. It's frustrating. I hate cooking, I hate cleaning, I hate doing laundry. BUT I do them. Not always on time, but I do them. When I spend 45 minutes cooking dinner, I want someone to say "thank you for making that for me" but what does husband do? Walks in, goes straight to kitchen, grabs plate and starts eating. Leaves dishes sit out for day or two at least. Drives me up the freaking wall!!! Therapist says compromises need to be made. WHAT IS THERE TO COMPROMISE? Say THANK YOU and my life is complete. Why are boys so dumb? Are they missing chemicals in their brains? Chemicals that tell them to be nice? I don't get it. I just don't get it. He won't spend 45 minutes making dinner, so he doesn't understand the need for a simple thank you. Not a "I mowed the lawn so we're even thank you" but an actual verbal thank you. SHEESH!

Other than the few minor hiccups, life is good. I feel inspired to put my life story into words for someone to read 500 years from now. Although I'll probably never be as talented as Alligator, maybe someone will read it and say "Wow, that was a good story" Probably husband 50 years from now as he's cleaning out my stuff to make room for the new bride he picked up at the old folks' home.

White Dresses, Lizard Skin, Big Houses, and Sinus Infections...

White Dresses----who wears white at a wedding?! Oh yeah, the bride! and occasionally the groom, if you do that whole on the beach, in white linen thing. But seriously?! Who would wear a white dress to a wedding, if they were not the bride? Apparently someone at my wedding! The nerve you have to have to wear white! SERIOUSLY!! It's not about you! it's about me! SO the white dress thing really just topped off the day/night. There were several instances where I just wanted to say "it's my wedding, we're not here for you" But, I digress.
Lizard Skin--honeymooning tip #789 - If you're in the pool for an entire day, don't let the free drinks get to you and cause you not to re-apply sunscreen. Re-application is KEY. Otherwise, you will peel like lizard. Good times Confucius say.
Big Houses---finally CLOSED on the house! It's officially the property of TMT and DAT. Ha..that way you can't tell whether or not I've officially changed my name, which I have not. Again, I digress.
Sinus Infections---so what tops off a wedding, a honeymoon, and buying a house?! The start of a beautiful sinus infection! God I love 'em! I can't breathe, my chest hurts...literally hurts, and I just want to lay in bed. But considering I was just off for 7 days, it apparently is not an option at this point. Love my immune system! Love it! love it! love it!

So, if ever you're bored, need something to do, call us up! we'll be painting, or weed eating, or packing, or maybe even lounging in our new master bedroom. Who knows?!

BIG NEWS!!! BIG BIG NEWS!!!!

Holy schnikes Batman!!! WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! Jeepers creepers that's so strange to say!!!
I'm totally excited though! We literally close on the house 3 days after we get back from the honeymoon. Nothing like a down payment, insurance, home warranty, closing costs etc to come home to!!!

It's super exciting though! I want to pee in my pants, and then I want to cry because HOLY JEEPERS!!! Insane! Only I would get married, and buy a house in the same week!!! I'm such a smart cookie!

LEAP year

So I'm going to leap into 2008. Okay, okay, maybe I should have been leaping prior to now, but the point is, I'm doing it and better late than never right?! So I made some resolutions in January with Alligator, and I mostly did them half heartedly. I mean, they're good resolutions and any would be darn proud of them, but I've yet to stick to them. So I'm going to adjust my grand resolutions to something more practical that I might actually stick to.

#1--be nicer to people---I've since realized that it's not a matter of being nicer, but a matter of controlling my anger which will in turn make me a nicer person. So it should read
"Don't blow your fuse and take a deep breath"

#2 - Lose a significant amount of weight---We're going to change this to an actual number. Ya know--because that sounds easier. So it should read
"stop being such a fat ass and lose at least 20 pounds" My hope here is that at twenty pounds I'll be a humpback instead of a killer whale and I'll be inspired to continue.

#3- enjoy the remainder of my engagement-lots of deep breaths---well shit. Engagement is almost over and the deep breaths haven't come yet. BUT I did hear that these supposed deep breaths can really help in trying situations. I better get an oxygen tank or something...
So, it should read "stop being a bitch and breathe" yes, that's much better.

#4-laugh out loud as much as possible---so unfortunately for me, this one tends to coincide with #1 only not in a positive way. It's usually more of the "i'm laughing at you because you're stupid" kind of thing. ;o) Oops.
So I think this one should say "stop being a bitch and only laugh at things that are truly funny....to everyone in the room" that might help me stick to that one better....

So, basically, I need to stop being a bitch and a whale and my life should right back on track!!! alright! PERFECT!!! now if only I had a "how to live life peacefully: for dummies" books, I think I might actually be able to do this...

Anyone know where I can find one?

HOLY HELL!!!

Depression and Gratitude

Depression - I really don't think that anyone other than Alligator reads my blog. Well I'll love my Alligator, it'd be nice to be semi famous and have other people reading my blog as well right?!


Gratitude---what a great weekend! This weekend was the wedding shower of greatness and I had a blast!!!! Not only did we make out like bandits, but people really put a lot of time and effort into their presents and it was so sweet to see everything that people wrote. Including an awesome poem written by Alligator. It was great. We are truly blessed to have so many wonderful friends and "family" because to the Diddy and I, all of our friends are family.


Anywho, just a quick little note to express to Alligator and whomever randomly reads my blog that I had a great weekend! And the best friends and family a gal could ask for.

So much drama in the LBC its kind of hard being Snoop D O double G!

So if you know me, then you know at least something about my work environment. All I'm going to say here is that I will soon be submitting a short story version of a day in the life to Reader's Digest because sheesh!

Anywho.....as I write this the fiance, we'll call him Diddy is playing some stupid Xbox game and I'm stuck hanging out with just myself trying to decide what the Diddy and Tiffany shall dance to at the wedding. You don't want it to be too upbeat, but you don't want it to drag on either. So the Diddy has completely disagreed with every choice I've made. It's going to be impossible to find a song that we can both agree on. Let me just say that I want to shoot the Diddy in the head and run away!

Shower is on Saturday. That is uber exciting. I can't wait to see all my presents! err.....see all my friends...in honor of my holy nuptials that will soon doom me to the "married life." I think I'll still retain my coolness, but since the Diddy already thinks that I'm an old women, things are not looking up for me. So the last hoorah is on March 15. At which point, there will be NO contact with the Diddy. I'm sure el Diddy will be splitting his time between the Clubhouse and oh I don't know.....Babydoll's. Gag! I can't believe he even wants to go, but we all know that the Diddy is a special case. So alas, I'll just drink an extra drink or two to forget where the Diddy is and move on to the next bachelorette party shenanigan.

CS by the way, I was mentioning to the security nazi wannabe that blogger was blocked, so we go out on the web to take a gander, and ALAS it is no longer blocked!!! all is well for we can once again block at the office and not be blocked by the demon they call websense. Sense my ass that thing has no sense. I mean, c'mon! Lohan's nips but not blogger?! Seriously!!! WTF?!?!

To everyone else, all that means is that there will probably be more interesting posts since I no longer have to write them at night while I'm wishing I was asleep.

toodles for now......I'm out!

Fracking Josh Turner!

I'm not real sure what my blog post is going to be about this morning. Seems as though a ton has been going on lately. And I suck at blogging, so that's part of the problem too.

This weekend was an adventure. Got my dress to the tailor so that the bussel can be done. That was exciting. Realized I have to wear smaller heels than I originally thought....no biggie really, but kind of upsetting. Stefani's dress is going to rock. It's going to be so stinking cute! I'm kind of jealous because she'll probably look cuter than me. But what can you do?! Think I figured out hair.....gotta talk to the hair lady about it, but shouldn't be hard to do. Got my new ring finally! YAHOO!! it's super cool. I'm actually not giving it enough credit. It's amazing. I'm totally in love with it and I can't believe that it's mine!!! But then again, Dustin always has spoiled me...so I guess I'll just consider myself darn lucky!

Gave up cussing for lent. not doing so well with that. Apparently, it's a lot easier to cuss like a sailor than it is to give it up for 40 days. Maybe I should contemplate a different item to give up for the Lenten season! Dustin has started saying frack instead of the actual f word, although I think frack sounds a lot like the original but that's just my personal opinion.

I'm totally in love with the new Josh Turner song. It's greatness. Not something I would expect him to sing, which is why I think I love it anymore.

2 months and counting......stress level at about a 5. We'll see how high it gets in the next few weeks.

Invitations go out today! Keep your eyes peeled!

Oh Josh Turner!!!

A Bitch or a Giant? You decide

Sunshine and daisies. That's the positive energy I'm releasing today. Sunshine and daisies. As my fiance told me to "be the bigger person" this morning, I started thinking to myself "I must be a giant by now, because I'm always taking the high road and being the bigger person". So I ask you this---why is it that I have to be the bigger person? Yet again to say the least. I'm tired of being the bigger person. For once, I want to be the bitch that everyone hates. But then I think "maybe I am the bitch that everyone hates and I just haven't gotten the memo yet." You see my dilemma. Am I the bitch, or am I the giant?

Personally, today, I'd much rather be the bitch than the giant because at least then I could focus on myself this weekend and not on someone else. Seems like it's always someone else. Dustin needs this or we need this and we need you to do this and can you be here at this time? If you haven't noticed yet, it's definitely a whoa is me kind of day. So let's just roll with it. I was raised to be the giant, not the bitch, but good grief it'd be a lot nicer to be the bitch sometimes don't ya think?

No waiting in lines, no worrying about cutting people off, or letting this car in or this car. Just easy coasting. Sounds perfect don't ya think? No "sure, i'll do whatever you'd like for me to" just doing whatever I want.....greatness.

If I choose to be the bitch one day and you're on the receiving end, I apologize in advance. But even giants need their rest.

Yahoo messenger? Apparently not

So who buys a phone that is apparently incompatible with everything they would like to do? Oh me! That's right. While the new blackberry is totally cool and red (my fave) it does not however seem to want to download Yahoo messenger. And that's one of the things I really wanted it for?! What the heck? Whatev. Be mad at me phone, see if I care. But if you get the chance, do you think you could download Yahoo messenger? Thanks.

Oh, and leave it to me to curse myself. After boasting about not having a period and not having any migraines accompanied with it, what do I do? Start my period and am now on the verge of a migraine. Thank you Jesus!

blog post numero uno

Okay, so it's been a long, long time since I've taken the time to post anything on any sort of blog, so we'll see how this goes!

So..what's new? the Diddy (fiance) and I are patiently waiting for April and thus the start of the mad dash for the wedding. It's all very exciting, but very exhausting. What kind of flowers? What kind of color scheme? What about decorations? If you invite so and so then you have to invite so and so!! It's all so very overwhelming. On second thought, I might have opted for an elopement and not this long engagement wedding shindig that we're going for! But in the end, it will hopefully, fingers crossed, be the most memorable day of my life to date. (I'm guessing child birth is also very memorable to say the least) So we'll see how everything goes. Now that I have this space where no one can tell me to quit complaining, I'm sure there will be lots of discussion about the wedding and everything in general.

the Diddy and I have started working out more frequently. Well, just working out is a big step in the right direction. Thus far, we've been swimming, which is actually kicking my tail end pretty hard. I can't believe that I have gotten this out of shape! I mean, granted, I've managed to eat Taco Bueno rather than salad and to lay on the couch rather go to the gym, but man, this is going to be tough! So we started on Sunday and took a breather on Monday to go back last night. We added more laps to the routine, but really killed ourselves in the process. I thought the Diddywas going to punch me out right there in the pool! But alas, we made it and no one died. Although I really thought that I might towards the end when my legs felt like spaghetti. The other folks in the pool started giving us the look of "you guys are crazy! Take a breather" and that's when I knew it was time to bail out on the work out. We must have looked like little red tomatoes wilting in the water or something. Still haven't gotten the stupid smell of chlorine out of my hair. GROSS!

the Diddy is in the market for a job related to the health care field. While he's fine with his job, he wants something that will get him more into the hospital setting and back on his feet. We shall see where that takes us as well. Hopefully right into a new house! Still looking although it's starting to be a little discouraging. It's way harder than I thought it would be! But Andrea is great and things will eventually work out I am sure!

Doggies are doing good! Wilson finally graduated from puppy training school (yes, they were aware that he's 5, not a pup) but the fact is he still graduated!!! Bailey has a pinched nerve at the moment, but she's getting better. It was causing her to have these crazy spasms and she just looked so scared and in pain! Like "Guys! What is this?"

I'm sure there will be more later, but this will keep you satisfied for now!!!